Stress in My Pressure Cooker Head

I was planning on writing today about how my "to-do lists" have become so long and intense that my body has started to fall apart. But just looking at that title has given me the start of an anxiety attack and my chest hurts now and my joints are throbbing and I just realized that…

Did I Do Too Much for Them?

As mothers, we second guess ourselves and the choices we make all of the time. Since these children don't come with owner's manuals or anything remotely close to that, we sort of "wing it" and combine our gut instincts with the way that we were brought up and what we admired from parental examples we…

Supposed To vs Actually

We're supposed to go on a road trip today. We're supposed to be stuffing the entire overbooked with practical shit summer into one day of family fun not too far from home. My kids are supposed to be up and packing picnics, getting softball equipment, and bags of ice ready and into the back of…

Overbooking and Aging

I'm not really old. But I'm no Spring chicken, either. And for those of us who have been in the "over achiever" category all our lives, this whole aging thing is just ass-kicking. No, not a little tiring. I mean, beat-down with a baseball bat, friggin' leaving you taking 3-hour naps in the middle of…

My Body is a Traitor

Rotator cuff is screaming at me and has been since January that it is being overused. I tried taking it to the doctor and all she prescribed was NSAIDs and ordered an x-ray which didn't show any bone issues. I took it back in April and said, "Hey, this thing is worse." She sent me…

Now That I Can Breathe Without Tears

This was my post on Facebook the day following the tragic and brutal assassination of five police officers just 20 miles east of me in Dallas. I thought I would share it here and then expand: "I spent the better part of last night with my ear glued to the radio. I feel like a…

Never-Ending To-Do Lists

We both had To-Do lists with at least 9 tasks so we cut our phone call short (half an hour as opposed to an hour.) My sister suggested I call her in a few hours to see which of us completed more on our lists. Mine was uber-long today since it's the last day of…

It’s Gotta Be the Heat

I've got at least four blog posts saved to draft. They all started out as good subjects to write about, but somewhere around the third paragraph each lost steam so I just chucked them into the draft folder. I hate that. I know that I'm notorious for starting projects and not finishing them for a…

Fifty

He turned 50 yesterday. He was working out of town and didn't get home until really late. The children were all asleep as they had final exams today and needed the rest. I sat with him for a little while, fighting to keep my eyelids open. Five o'clock in the morning comes so fast. I…

Things No One Tells You When You’re Young

Normal is just a setting on a dryer. Go ahead and be yourself. If you want to shout or wear mismatched socks or clothes that aren't in style, do it. Whatever the "normal standards" are today, they're really sort of a suggested guideline for the loudest group you're around. If you want to make snow…