It’s been relatively quiet this Summer. Mostly because the two youngest have been taking accelerated courses (Physics and Economics/US Govt) to get them out of the way for the Fall. The two older boys have been working and Randa and I have been sleeping in a lot and just hanging out.
But there are only two days left of Summer school and then Sam is off to visit her grandparents for a while. And I’ll be lost without her. The boys will either be working or sitting in front of their devices all day/night. Randa will be here hanging with me like usual. But our relationship is different than mine and Sam’s. Randa’s is more physical with hugs or shouting, whichever she needs to do at the time. I like Randa. She likes me, most of the time. But there’s that level of dependency and seemingly a boundary that isn’t crossed. It’s not for a lack of wanting to be closer. It’s just the dynamic of us.
Sam is actually more like a friend. We have the mother-daughter relationship that is so close to friendship that we actually enjoy each other’s company. It’s not just me wanting to hang out with her. She actually enjoys being around me and has farted off friends to stay home with me. I love that. It’s the type of mother-daughter I longed for with my own mom but never really had. I’m so happy that I have it with my daughter.
And I’m going to miss the crap out of her next week.